Is it a lack of motivation or a lack of purpose?
I keep questioning why my days are such a struggle? Recently I have found it difficult to get out of bed. Some days feeding myself is challenging. Other moments, I just want to eat and eat and eat until I pass out. All these things are hindering my progress. At this stage I am worse off then when I began this journey.
My weight is climbing, my skin hates me, my energy levels are not getting me through the day. What do I do? How do I do? Where do I go now?
It’s okay to be a glowstick. Sometimes we have to break before we can shine.
I keep reading, searching if you will, for an answer.
I use to believe prayer was the answer, and if I meditated hard enough I would be guided to the result. Help would aid me in my darkest hour and it would all work out. I have learnt through the years, the only help coming is what I ask for and the only answer I am going to get is as a result of all my hard work and effort.
So my question, is it lack of motivation or purpose?
Have I just not found the purpose hiding in the darkest parts of my subconscious? The reason I want to achieve weightloss and life transformation? The driving forces which will keep me on track and delivering my achievable goals or am I that lost and really don’t care?
Searching for answers – Cathartic-Ella.
Chasing The Dream. 