Story-Time Episode One
Progress is not inevitable. It is up to us to create it.
The wall, it came for me this morning.
I went to bed last night with high spirits. I have completed 5 days, full time. Something that has been a challenge for me. I did it though, exercise, eating my plan, and all the sleep at the right time (with very little variations which I have been super proud of). IT has all been happening.
So where did this wall come from? Why has it been so difficult to follow through and be motivated today?
I guess you could stay it started with a troubling sleep. For once I was tired at a reasonable time with no extra support. I have been in a better routine, bed 9/10 pm up between 5-8 am. In a routine where I can do anything I like, this has been a challenge in itself. I skipped my magnesium as I knew I felt tired and fell asleep with no difficulty. And yet, 3 am shows up and I am awake, awake, agitated, restless. It was like my mind and body were at odds, with one being very ready to sleep and the other, ready to face the day.
SO I got up – as you do – played a little video game, had a mini snack (my stomach was growling) and went back to sleep. I had only a few hours before my actual arising time was due, as I had morning plans. Be at the beach for a skate at 9:30am.
Then we skate. It’s a new hobby and one I am still wobbly with… but I show up and I get a great workout. Today being no exception to the rule. It was windy, like the very breeze wanted to shape my speed and at times I was flying with no effort. And then we had to come back. Against the wind, a friend who had sided with my mental state in the war against being indoors and it was hard. In the last month of skating, there has been very little occasions where I have felt like I am going to fall. Constantly.
And now here I am, it is 4 pm. The day has escaped me and is not over yet. My brain does not want to cook, or deal with food and pizza is on my mind. Or chips. Or cake. Just something I do not have to cook, and I am puzzled as to what to do to snap my funk.
If anyone can help me, I would be super appreciated.
Troubled and Perplexed,
Cathartic-Ella
Chasing The Dream. 