You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.
It has been a rough year. If you have been following my journey you will have seen that I have not excelled in this opportunity of shut down. I rebelled, in every way possible, exasperating the demons that make it difficult to get out of bed everyday. My progress followed the cliche, 1 step forward 2 steps back.
Fear, anger and pain have kept me back, kept me defeated and hopeless. I feel like I have tried every diet, exercise regime, wellness process and have failed because my subconscious does not see an end, or believe that I can make a difference. I have tried shakes, the fasting 800, calorie tracking, eating intuitively, working out 2 hours a day to no avail.
But there is hope.
Time is not up yet, while I am likely to still have bad days, I will have good days too. There is a path and a road map to what looks like normal and that is 77 days. 77 days of giving it once last shot. Making sure I eat well, I exercise daily and I get the sleep I need. That is my focus.
This is day 1 of my 365 day transformation and I am starting with my health as a priority. Once the ball is rolling then we can think of finance, career, relationships. Our starting point is 87kgs, with a tendency to spend the day in bed eating. My goal is to workout an hour a day, stick to 1400 calories and take magnesium for sleep. I hope to not rely on ubereats instead cooking my own meals, work out with a friend every day and message my accountability buddy when I feel like straying. I am also going to try and video my progress and photograph my journey particularly in moments of weakness for reflection.
So, this is my plan. I know I have time, I know I can change and even though I have failed many times this year I will succeed. I have one last chance.
If not now, when?
Cathartic-Ella
Chasing The Dream. 