“The first step towards greatness is honesty”.
When we started this blog it was to document a journey. A change I wanted and had mentally committed to. I wanted to be able to keep myself accountable through writing the journey, posting the journey publicly and sharing my intentions.
Then the second lockdown broke out (and if you have read any of my previously entries) you will have noted my mental sanity paralleled. Progress became regress. The days seemed to shrink, and my energy levels followed suit. I was happy if I even got out of bed. One day merged into the next, and time was a construct in my universe.
A few days ago, I woke up.
I made the commitment to myself that I do not want to continue my life with the excuses and the “no” effort because the days are hard. I do not want to stage a show of what I want to be, consumed with the what if. There are things I want to achieve and places I want to go and that takes action, honesty and effort. No matter how challenging, or unprepared I am to push through the pain.
So,
I restart a day one. A new beginning, a new program, a new mental state.
I recommit to myself, that from here on we are honest. We will be accountable. And we will change.
I rebuke the I do not know how to start or where to start and I take action.
This is my time for change.
Cathartic- Ella
Chasing The Dream. 