We take a break from our regular program to rant/brain dump/stream our consciousness about our current feelings and situation.
I am writing to you wonderful people out there from the confines of my four walls. If you are watching the news or are Australian you would be aware that Wednesday we (Melbourne, Victoria) went back to a stage three lockdown. Fun.
I should be happier, more excited for the extra time we are granted, but I was finally getting into the groove of things. Work-life balance has never been my jam and I felt like I was starting to make progress. Exercising, getting out into nature, seeing more of the place I am living, it was exciting and the closest I have been to feeling like me since moving to Melbourne. Making progress with my goals and dreams, planning the future.
Things were starting to feel great.
And now, I’m back to square one. Being locked inside four walls with limited options. I know this feeling will pass, but for now I want to take a second to succumb to this feeling.
Here is to wallowing for two days (one to feel sorry for myself, one to feel guilty about feeling sorry for myself) and then we shall be back to the regular program of working towards our dreams.
Cathartic-Ella out.
Chasing The Dream. 