The screen blurs as the sound of whirring from the computer fades into the distance. She doesn’t realize but her eyes are staring out the window into the blue sky, and her mind a thousand miles away. She can see the leather hiking boots laced up as she takes another step in those breathable padded comfy socks. The sound of the dirt, rocks and leaves crunch under the heavy duty but ultra light weight boot. The air is fresh, and she can breathe easy as the cold rushes into her lungs. Her athletic, lean calves tense as she moves up the incline. She takes another moment to hear the breeze rustling through the leaves of the high forest trees. The birds are chirping in the distance, but otherwise it’s deadly quiet, other than the peaceful sound of nature. She feels the warmth of the tufted wool lining padding against the soft long sleeve inner shell she’s wearing. She smiles as the sun filters through the forest and shines on her cheeks bringing warmth for a moment as she continues the exploration of her surroundings. She’s well prepared for an adventure through the elements as the forest begins to open up to a ridged dirt path leading towards snowy mountains. A thin film of earth, and life can be felt on her exposed skin. As she licks her lips, she tastes salt and smells earth from the sweat, dirt, and grass she has traveled through. She’s fitter, and leaner than ever. Her body has been conditioned for a 30 day long hike throughout the wilderness, and she is carrying everything she needs.
The whirring snaps back into earshot, and the blue screen of her laptop comes back into focus. Her back is sore from over sleeping, and the pain returns to her knee from the running injury. Her stomach is bloated, and full from the tub of Ben and Jerry’s, pizza, and burritos she ate yesterday. She can feel the 100 kilos of fat weighing in on her stomach, thighs, and arms. Her abdomen and intestines cramp as the symptoms of her disorder shoot through her stomach. She touches her distended stomach, and lowers her chin to protrude the fat into a double chin, then releases the tension, as if to release the dream from attainment. Feeling bloated, fat, and removed from nature she realizes she needs to change her activity. The girl in her dream is not the girl she woke up to.
Chasing The Dream. 